Anonymously Visible

Sounds like an oxymoron. It is an oxymoron.  But much more than an oxymoron.  It is a state of mind. More a in between. Between anonymity and visibility. But closer to anonymity. With visibility an alluring option.

Is anonymously visible possible in a world driven by the naked lust for attention, money and power? I think it is. It is about stepping back and looking at the larger picture. It is like being detached while being attached to the formulae that cripple us to such an extent that we run the rat race just like the others. We are so crippled that we refuse to step out and create our own starting block.

Fear grips us. What if we are alone on the road we have dared to create? What if we fail? What if we become anonymous? But that’s only one side of the story. There is another side. We may be anonymous but we are visible. People notice us.

Anonymous visibility is better than forced visibility. The former is looking into the beautiful eyes of invisibility. The latter is not being able to see eye-to-eye with the very people we are running with.

Mind over matter

Debits and credits, the balance sheet doesn't balance, down another cup of coffee and the balance sheet still doesn't balance......marginal cost and revenue.....perfect competition and imperfect markets...what is perfection? the do's and dont's of writing a business letter...can we be formal? what's wrong in being informal?

Dynamite sounds good, so does scientist..well nothing else matters!

The center of the periphery

The core is getting crowded. Too many people and too many opinions. I think we can do this. I also think we can do this. Do, do, do…..doing, doing, doing. How much to do? Why should we do it? Does it matter?

The periphery seems silent. It has space. I think it can accommodate lots of people. But then, don’t tell anyone. I want to go away quietly. If too many people get to know about it, the silence will go away to another place.

I am walking towards the periphery. Slowly, one step at a time, the periphery is becoming my core. Walk, walk, walk….one motion, my breath seems to be playing a tune.

My core is in sight. Now I am walking faster. My breathing gains momentum.

I reach the place. Get down on my knees, spread my arms and embrace the silence. It’s beautiful. It’s lonely. It’s scary. And yet, I am home.

Trains of thought...

A ship in the distance. Now i see it, now i don't.
The waves. Their ebb and flow. What's their story?
The sand. I take a fistful and tighten my grip. The harder i try to hold on, the faster it slips away.
The sun beating down on my face. I close my eyes. And open them to see the it disappear behind the clouds.

The thoughts are back..

The thoughts are back my friend...I thought i got rid of them but they have surfaced and how!! And as always i am overwhelmed...They are tons of them but i will list down the top 10...So here we go.
1) Flirting with death in the cradle of life
2) That cliff looks interesting
3) Say hello to depression
4) Step back till invisibility shakes hands with you
5) What's the best way to disappear?
6) How long is too long?
7) How do you define fairness?
8) Are we acting or pretending?
9) Does it matter?
10) So what if it matters?
Choose your pick. And let me know what you picked.

The centre or the periphery

A circle is deceptive. It doesn't give you too many options. You are either at the centre or on the periphery. And the distance between the two is as long as you want it to be.

The centre gets you noticed. You stand out. People are noticing you. You need to be at your best at all times. That's where, I think, people would finally want to be. But the centre can also get crowded. That's when you need to hold your own. Hold on to your position and get people to see you in the same light.

The periphery gives you space. It allows you to figure out how much space you need. The periphery lets you be. But the periphery can get lonely...

Moving from the periphery to the centre is natural. Abandoning the centre for the periphery is no child's game.

So, are you at the centre or on the periphery? Are you moving towards the centre or happy on the periphery?

If you on the periphery and see someone walking towards you, don't be scared. It's just me.

I bumped into

the most beautiful girl i have ever known. I mean i kinda know a little about her but wish i knew much more.

I couldn't tell her how awesome she looked. The words were on the tip of my tongue but i quickly swallowed them. They are sleeping somewhere inside me. They long to be free.

Will i ever set them free?